It is pretty late and honestly - I can fall asleep right now - but I am feeling like I NEED TO DO SOMETHING GREAT... SOMETHING BIG... BIGGER THAN ANY OTHER PERSON. What is this compulsion about? When is what I am already doing enough???
In addition to my coaching business I am also an Assistant Director in television. My latest project has been "All My Children". About a year an a half ago - the Executive Producer moved the show from NY to LA to cut costs in order to keep this legacy of TV history on the air. Despite her amazing efforts we found out last week that we will be shooting for another 4-5 months.
Now mind you... I have only been on the show for 1 1/2 years of the 42 year run. As the cancellation was being announced - I am happy to report that I was able to step outside of my own little world and take in what my fellow crew members, production staff and cast were going through. Some of these people - have been on this show for over 30 years... Can you imagine what that news must have felt like? You dedicate a better part of your life toward a project or a cause and then it just goes away. How does one process? I digress... but have to say that this group of people were divinely put together. The entire cast moved out to the west coast and just embraced LA and all of what it has to offer. Most of the production staff up and moved as well in addition to some crew members. By the time we were 3 months in - it was as if we had been working together forever.
Coincidentally - we had this week (April 18, 2011 - April 25, 2011) off. It was weird... We found out on a Thursday - took an extended lunch, came back and went about our production for the rest of the day and all day Friday. So now there is some downtime....
Well come Monday I was off being PRODUCTIVE. I updated my resume, started contacting producers and other contacts in the industry.... I fielded calls from a social worker about a 9 year old girl who weighs 240 pounds. I am helping her find new avenues to help this child. It is something I am so passionate about... Helping young people thrive and find balance spiritually, physically, and mentally. While doing this, I went through all my bills to see what expenses I could cut so I can save more money in the coming months. I started looking at my twitter, Facebook, and Blogging accounts to see how I can become more visible as a coach. I ran 6 miles, had Passover dinner, went to the movies, made plans with friends, had a date... And it's ONLY TUESDAY.
When I came home from my dinner plans and movie tonight - my dear friend was online and we started chatting. She is writing a book and just sent me the link to her website that she constructed. As happy as I am for her - I can't help but think... Where is my book? Should I update my website???? Should I be writing more articles???? So it got me thinking...
When is enough enough? When is what I am already doing enough to feel satisfied and that I am a child of this universe with the purpose of being of service however that manifests.
This is why I love writing... This is why I love being honest - sharing my challenges as well as my victories because as I am writing this I realize that I am MORE THAN ENOUGH. As I give, the world gives to me. I am proud of my endeavors, I am proud of all I do and I am excited about all I will continue to do.
Thank you for listening... Please feel free to post back any thoughts. xoxoxoxo M
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